Vegetables Please...

Proverbs 15:17 says, "A bowl of vegetables with someone you love is better than a steak with someone you hate".  I could not agree more...

I was looking up bible verses about love when I came upon this one.  It made me smile and made me think about a lot of things.  As many of you know about me I am going through a time in my life where things are not so rosy and I am not exactly eating vegetables.  When you're young you never think about the what if's that could happen in life you only think about the fairytale and what should be.

Here I am almost 40 years old and now all I think about are the what-ifs and what do I do now's.  When you are young, everything is a fairytale and you never dream that your life may just turn out some way you hadn't planned for and that could be either good or bad.  I never thought I would be here at this point in my life wondering what is going to happen next, driving down the street looking for my next place to live out my next chapter and begin a new life.  I never thought I could do it, but I am.

For so long I was the one in Proverbs 15:17, you know the non vegetarian having the steak and never realizing it.  You get used to life as you know it and any bad thing that happens in that life you become immune to.  People tell you how unhappy you look and how you have changed and you think that they must be crazy and don't know what they are talking about, until that one day when you reach a point in your life where you realize you don't want the steak anymore and all you long for are the vegetables and those people were right about you.

I am at the point in my life where I realize that I am awesome.  I may not be perfect but I am a fun, loving, creative and outgoing person.  I feel like I have so much to give to the world and I have been awakened from this deep sleep and want to do just that-give to the world.  I have reached the point of my life where I will not settle for less than anything that makes me happy and leaves a smile on my face.  I want to have the vegetables, because I deserve nothing less.