Sometimes I just don't know why. I don't know why for a lot of things. I don't have all the answers, I don't know why. I am sitting in my suite tonight with a heavy heart and eyes that aren't dry. It could be that I went to Back to School Night tonight and found out that the kids just don't care about their grades, when they should be. I guess I just don't understand why you would want to get to this point and just give up when I know they are so much smarter. I don't know why kids break our hearts and think that their parents want anything less than the best for them. I don't know why they insist that they are smarter than us.
I don't know why a little girl can envision her perfect prince coming along one day to rescue and take care of her and when she grows up she realizes it just may end up that she lives in her own private suite. I don't know why I sometimes lay in bed at night and think of all my what ifs. I don't know why I can't forget people who who don't care for me like I do for them. I don't know why I am still here in this ocean waiting for my ship to come in when in reality it's just a pond. I don't know why I excitedly dream about my adventures in life and then wake up wishing I was still asleep. I don't know why your heart won't do what you tell it. I don't know why I see happy people and get jealous I'm not them. I don't know why I'm scared to roam.
I don't know why people we love and think about every day move away from us and then get sad they aren't close by. I don't know why I sit on a small patch of grass surrounded by a sea of square stones talking to someone who isn't even there. I don't know why I listen to songs that remind me of happier times but only make me sad.
I don't know why people do what they do. I don't know why people are who they are. I don't know why people are people. I don't even know why I am here. I guess the only thing I really know is that I am here right now and I am the only one I can blame for my unhappiness. If I don't care enough to find my destiny, no one else will be either. As the saying goes...You can lead a horse to the water but you can't force them to drink...and I wish I did, but I don't know why.
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