Tomorrow...

The other day I heard a song and it said something like, "Have you ever felt like a plastic bag just blowing in the wind".  I thought about that and decided that yes, I have felt that way and lately more and more.  Just a feeling of emptiness with no plan for where the wind will take you next.  Perhaps it is just the fact that a few weeks ago I had emergency surgery to have my appendix removed.  Could this feeling of emptiness or that something is missing be the fact that I don't have my appendix anymore? 
I guess I could argue this fact but I don't think that's the case.  I have all these things in my life that I should be happy about.  I'm not single looking for love, I have two teenagers who are old enough to babysit themselves, I have a house, a job, cars and enough money in the bank to get by.  So my question remains...what's missing? 
I have been back at church since August of last year and I attend every Sunday morning.  Maybe what's missing is that I should be going more and as I continue to type I know that this is the case.  Don't get me wrong, my dad used to say that even if you couldn't make it to church, as long as you pray to God, that's what matters.  This remains to be true and I pray whenever I can squeeze in time and remember.  That sounds awful right?  Here I am with all the people and things God has blessed my life with and I have to remember to squeeze in time if I'm not tired or when I need a prayer answered..  I know I am not the only one in this world who has been selfish with my time.
Just tonight I gave my son a ride to a meeting that he told me would only last a few minutes.  It took a little over an hour and I was really mad when he came back to the car I waited in.  I told him it wasn't right that he takes advantage of my time and doesn't even apologize.  Call it karma because how many times have I taken advantage of God's time and never apologized.
This is what I have decided is missing from my life...more God time.  Everyday there are so many things in life that we take for granted and don't thank God for.  So many times we find ourselves praying when we need prayers answered but when everything is ok we forget all that he does for us.  At a friend's church service I attended a few weeks ago the Pastor said, "People are religious when they're unemployed, but  let them get a job and they forget where their church is."  It's true and we all know it.
So many times I worry about what tomorrow will bring that I forget to be grateful about what was given to me today. 
Tomorrow I am going to wake up with a better attitude, a more grateful attitude and I am going to thank God for all he has blessed me with.  Maybe once I do this, I will stop feeling like a lonely, empty bag flowing in the wind and I will feel like me again, just the person God wants me to be.