This weekend for the second time, I watched Sex and the City II . First of all I would just like to tell you that I am a huge fan of SATC. I watch episodes from all seasons whenever they come on the air. I soak up everything from these women from shoes to sexuality to relationships. In the much anticipated sequel to the first movie Carrie and Big are feeling the effects of getting too comfortable in marriage to the point that sitting on a couch or laying in bed watching TV is making them lose their "Sparkle". All Carrie wants is to go out with her man and paint the town and have fun away from home and their everyday humdrum life. Sparkle is in essence what we refer to as going out or having an adventurous life other than the everyday routine stuff.
When we are dating we live the life we think will be forever. There is wining and dining and romance through the roof. Not only do we fall in love with the person whom we are involved with, we also fall in love with the motions we go through and that is the sparkle.
When you get married, the sparkle is so bright that the shiny factor almost blinds you. You are in love and still in lust and everything is all shiny. But something happens through the years that makes the sparkle diminish. We have kids, careers and so many other things that block our paths and block any chance of having any kind of sparkle. Of course there are couples who have everything that would make any sparkle impossible and they are quite happy. Perhaps they just look happy and sparkly but all they really have is a glimmer.
Personally the only sparkle I can truly see right now is that of my silver glitter nail polish. Each day is a touch and go situation and I never know what to expect. Through all the problems though, there is no denying the fact that we love each other...still. It isn't easy and we never know where life will even take us the next day or the next ten years. We have two teenagers and they are like sponges that soak up any time we have. Sadly, the sparkle I always dreamed of having doesn't really exist. I get home sometimes and all I want to do is take a long shower and go to bed...sparkle, what's that?
Did you ever notice that when you go out with your significant other all alone just the two of you it seems like everything is perfect and you start to see just a smidgeon of sparkle? Suddenly as the night comes to an end and you get closer to your home, the sparkle burns out as if it never existed. It's like when we are away from home we live in this sort of fantasy world where there are no worries, no nagging no nothing that reminds us of what we go through every single day and suddenly, Voila...Sparkle!
I miss the sparkle. It comes and goes througout the years and I never know when it will show up. Is anyone ever truly happy with the amount of sparkle they have? Each day in my book of life I turn the page hoping for it. It's kind of like reading a long drawn out normal novel and then one day you turn the page to a beautiful colorful picture that you were maybe not expecting but always hoping for.
Maybe I have watched so many SATC episodes that my mind only works like theirs. Maybe I am just a hopeless romantic or maybe just maybe all I want is sparkle.
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