I read a story recently in a magazine of a woman who had a fairytale romance when she was younger and lived in Paris. He was the perfect guy and it was everything every girl dreams of. Then she moved back to the United States, got a great job, met a wonderful guy and so began their life together and she forgot all about that perfect guy in France...sort of. Yes, she was happy in her new life, but in the back of her mind remained the question...what if. What if she would have married Mr. Wonderful in Paris, how would her life turn out. So the story went that her friend went on a vacation with her own husband and found Mr. Wonderful Paris. It turns out he was married with about four kids living in a cozy house in the country. They had a normal life, but nothing more than what her friend had found . She called and reported back to her friend about the normalness, regular life her what if man had, and her friend was happy.
I think that everyone has some kind of what if question that they continually push to the back of their minds and every so often the what if sneaks back into your mind to the point where it makes you go crazy with wonder.
There's this person I knew...
Her name was Melinda. Her boyfriend was Daniel. Melinda's best friend was Morgan. Daniel's best friend was named Gavin. Melinda and Daniel decided that Morgan and Gavin were lonely and maybe they would like each other, so they set them up. It worked. It worked so well that their relationship outlasted Melinda's and Daniel's. Morgan and Gavin were going strong until Gavin's job forced him to move to another state. It didn't matter to them though, they were in love and they would survive this since Morgan couldn't go with him. For a while it worked...but only for a while. Gavin was working hard to save money and come back and make a life for both of them. Morgan though was going through her own changes and it was hard to be away from him.
Finally, Gavin came back, but then Morgan told him that things had changed and she had fallen out of love with him. Gavin was so heartbroken, he really loved Morgan. He needed a friend but the only one he knew of or had left was Morgan's friend Melinda, the one who set them up. As it turned out, Melinda was lonely too and also needed a friend. Gavin and Melinda became the best of friends. They could tell each other anything. They could hang out and watch movies, they could lay on the couch like a couple would with no feelings attached. One day while Melinda and Gavin were decorating his house for Christmas they had a pillow fight. Suddenly though the fun turned into a romantic tv moment and they shared a kiss. It was awkward at first but then they both realized as the days passed that they had feelings for each other. They took things really slow but livingroom cuddles never moved to the bedroom
Soon Melinda started to feel guilty. Though her and Morgan didn't hang out much anymore, she did feel a sesnse of loyalty to her friend and this person she wanted more with was in love with her friend at one time. It was too Jerry Springer-ish.
On a night out a few weeks later Melinda met Kevin and it was instant love. He was handsome, dressed up every day and was never in love with any of her friends. Melinda felt guilty about Gavin, but they never did anything and Gavin was still like her big brother or her best buddy, and he was always so laid back . She finally told Gavin and he was crushed, but what's done was done and Melinda moved on in life with Kevin. It was a life that was less than perfect and every so often her what if came into her realm of thinking. Where was Gavin now and what if....
What if's will make you crazy. I have a what if and I am sure you do too. As much as I think about my what if, I then start to think that if I had the what if's the for sure's in my life right now would not be the same. Only a few people in life have the perfect life, but even for the perfect one's what we think is so great, there is something they are wondering what if about.
So...what if... It is something I will forever wonder....will you?
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